A lack of Understanding??

He does not seem capable of understanding the culture, tensions or history of the region! It’s not going to go well, is it?

In Search of Captain Beefheart – A Rock Memoir – available in Hardcover/Paperback/Kindle

I really enjoyed writing this book. It charts a journey that started for me at the age of ten – my love of rock music. I bought my first singles at the age of ten – Buddy Holly and Adam Faith. I bought my first album at the age of eleven – The Shadows Greatest Hits. I saw my first live band at the age of fourteen – the (British) Birds. Them were my second live band. I never looked back. Hooked on the excitement. I was addicted.

In the late sixties I was immersed in the sixties underground scene and saw everyone – from Roy Harper to Hendrix and Cream. I used to see Pink Floyd, Led Zeppelin and Free in pubs, Jackson C Frank, Al Stewart and John Martyn at Les Cousins and was invited to Abbey Road studios for Roy Harper’s fabulous recording sessions. Meeting and talking to major rock stars behind the scenes and purchasing twelve thousand vinyl albums seemed like paradise. I saw a lot of the old blues guys, the folk guys and all the major bands. Life rocked.

This book is my attempt to capture it in words.

It’s probably my most successful book. You might find it entertaining!

Preface

Jack White launched into the searing riff that was the intro to ‘Death Letter Blues’. It shot me straight back to 1968 and the thrill of seeing and hearing Son House. Son’s national steel guitar was more ragged than Jack White’s crystal clear electric chords, and nowhere near as loud, but the chords rang true and the energy and passion were exactly the same.

Meg pounded the drums and the crowd surged forward.

It was Bridlington Spa in 2004. White Stripes were the hottest thing on the planet. The place was packed and the atmosphere electric. I was right near the front – the only place to be at any gig – the place where the intensity was magnified.

It was a huge crowd and they were crazy tonight. I could see the young kids piling into the mosh-pit and shoving – excited groups of kids deliberately surging like riot cops in a wedge driving into the crowd and sending them reeling so that they tumbled and spilled. For the first time I started getting concerned. The tightly packed kids in the mosh-pit were roaring and bouncing up and down and kept being propelled first one way and then another as the forces echoed and magnified through the mass of people. At the front the crush was intense and everyone was careering about madly. My feet were off the ground as we were sent hurtling around. I had visions of someone getting crushed, visions of someone falling and getting trampled. Worst of all – it could be me!

For the first time in forty odd years of gigs I bailed out. I ruefully headed for the balcony and a clear view of the performance. I didn’t want a clear view I wanted to be in the thick of the action. It got me wondering – was I getting to old for this lark? My old man had only been a couple of years older than me when he’d died. Perhaps Rock Music was for the young and I should be at home listening to opera or Brahms with an occasional dash of Wagner to add the spice. I had become an old git. Then I thought – FUCK IT!!! Jack White was fucking good! Fuck Brahms – This was Rock ‘n’ Roll. You’re never too old to Rock! And Rock was far from dead!

The search goes on!!

We haven’t got a clue what we’re looking for but we sure as hell know when we’ve found it.

Rock music has not been the backdrop to my entire adult life; it’s been much more than that. It has permeated my life, informed it and directed its course.

From when I was a small boy I found myself enthralled. I was grabbed by that excitement. I wanted more. I was hunting for the best Rock jag in the world! – The hit that would send the heart into thunder and melt the mind into ecstasy.

I was hunting for Beefheart, Harper, House, Zimmerman and Guthrie plus a host of others even though I hadn’t heard of them yet.

I found them and I’m still discovering them. I’m sixty four and looking for more!

Forget your faith, hope and charity – give me Sex, Drugs and Rock ‘n’ Roll and the greatest of these is Rock ‘n’ Roll!

I was a kid in the Thames Delta, with pet crow called Joey, 2000 pet mice (unnamed), a couple of snakes, a mammoth tusk, a track bike with a fixed wheel, a friend called Mutt who liked blowing up things, a friend called Billy who kept a big flask of pee in the hopes of making ammonia, and a lot of scabs on my knees.

My search for the heart of Rock began in 1959 and I had no idea what I was looking for when I started on this quest. Indeed I did not know I had embarked on a search for anything. I was just excited by a new world that opened up to me; the world of Rock Music. My friend Clive Hansell also had no idea what he was initiating when he introduced me to the sounds he was listening to. Clive was a few years older than me. He liked girls and he liked Popular Music. Yet he seemed to have limited tastes. I can only ever remembering him playing me music by two artists – namely Adam Faith and Buddy Holly. In some ways it was a motley introduction to the world of Rock ‘n’ Roll.

I was ten years old which would have made Clive about twelve or thirteen, I suppose he could even have been fourteen. That is quite a lot of years at that age. We used to got off to his bedroom, sit on the bed and he’d play me the singles – 45s – on his Dansette player. He’d stack four or five singles on the deck push the lever up to play and we’d lean forward and watch intently. The turntable would start rotating; the mechanism clunked as the arm raised, there were clicks and clunks as the arm drew back and the first single dropped, then the arm would come across and descend on to the outer rim of the disc. The speaker would hiss and crackle and then the music kicked in. We watched the process intently every time as if it depended on our full attention.

The Adam Faith singles were on Parlaphone and were red with silver writing. The Buddy Holly was on Coral with a black label and silver writing. We reverentially watched the discs spinning and listened with great concentration to every aspect of the songs. It was a start.

Yet Rock ‘n’ Roll was by no means the only quest I’d started on. I was an early developer. I’d hit puberty at ten and can imagine myself as the scruffy little, dirty-faced kid who climbed trees, waded through ditches, got covered in frogspawn and lichen and was suddenly sprouting pubic hair – very confusing.

Life was going to change for me. I was in a transition phase.

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Fighting Words – Available in Paperback/Hardback/Kindle

This is my latest offering. Just more words. I may have invented one or two but mainly they are just old words rearranged in order to recreate the thoughts and feelings that swirl around in my head. I have these concepts living in electricity in circuits in my brain. They seem to mean something. I translate them into symbols. These symbols are made of letters. The letters represent sounds. The sounds form a language. Language enables conscious human beings to express themselves and communicate. Communication is good. We are not alone. We share.

The hope is that the emotions, feelings are thoughts that go on in my head are similar to the ones that reside in your head. It’s a forlorn hope. In reality we are islands of consciousness unable to understand the universe any other being inhabits. My red is different to your red. I live in an entirely different universe to you.

But I am not deterred.

I still interpret electricity, convert it to symbols and use them to make contact. It’s futile. All life is futile. That’s what makes it magnificent.

These are my words.

You can purchase my words for a very small sum of money. You can own them, think about them and see if we manage to communicate across the infinite reaches that separate us. I hope so!

Fighting words. Fighting life. Fighting meaning. Life not death.
Fighting justice, fighting freedom, Fighting for breath.
Fighting arrogance, fighting violence, Fighting Hate.
Fighting for my principles before it’s all too late!
Fighting greed, fighting oppression, for fairness and ice-cream!
Fighting for fun, for love, for tolerance – fighting ‘til I scream!
Words are my weapons. Words have many meanings.
I’m fighting words. I’m fighting words.
These are my words.

Fighting Words

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Fighting words – Available in Hardback/Paperback/Kindle!

Thank you all for your support,; for looking at and buying my books. Much appreciated!!

Fighting words. Fighting life. Fighting meaning. Life not death.
Fighting justice, fighting freedom, Fighting for breath.
Fighting arrogance, fighting violence, Fighting Hate.
Fighting for my principles before it’s all too late!
Fighting greed, fighting oppression, for fairness and ice-cream!
Fighting for fun, for love, for tolerance – fighting ‘til I scream!
Words are my weapons. Words have many meanings.
I’m fighting words. I’m fighting words.
These are my words.

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Dad’s cancer – Bodies in a Window – Paperback/Kindle

The backdrop for this novel was the death of my father. I am standing in the hospital room by the side of his dead body looking out the window.

In thia extract we have just been given the diagnosis.

Excerpt – Bodies in a Window

We sat there stunned. I don’t know why. We both must have known it was coming. I’d known from the beginning. It was hearing it like that though. It sucked all the words out of your head and stopped you thinking. It was as if your brain stopped working. That’s what it was like for me – fuck knows what it was like for the old man. He was the one in front of the firing squad. But had that faraway look, seemed detached and did not appear to even be listening. The words were falling short. He was not taking any of it in. In fact he gave every appearance of not wanting to be here at all. I could understand that but…………

At least one of us was attentive. I listened as the Specialist told us what was what. The words seemed echoey and were coming to me as if I was in a long tunnel, but I tried to make sense of them despite the fact that I was still reeling from the impact of that first statement. Dad was dying. That’s what was going round in my head. It clouded everything. When those other words arrived they did not even seem to gel together to form any sense.

There are extensive tumours throughout the liver. I expect they are secondary. We will do further tests. I expect the primary will either be in the lung or gut. I can see from the extent that it is inoperable. Are you a smoker Mr Cooper?

Yes.

He smoked like a trooper – had done since he was a bloody trooper. He’d joined up in the war and his best mate had given him his first cig. Imagine that! You go through a fucking war with your mates getting shot to pieces, steel and bullets all around, the enemy doing their utmost to blow you to bits and you get a death sentence from your best bloody friend – killed by friendly fire! I felt like laughing out loud.

The feeling of being submerged eventually passed and reality hit home. Dad was dying. It was confirmed. He had inoperable liver cancer. There was nothing they could do. I sat there seething. This should not be happening. He was much too young. It should have been picked up much earlier. They should have been able to treat this.

What’s the treatment? Dad asked.

Treatment? I looked around at him in disbelief. He was highly intelligent. The guy had said it was inoperable. What was dad talking about? I stared at him and wondered what was going on in that head of his. The guy was telling him that he was dying. He was not stupid for god’s sake. Why was he behaving like this?

We will give you palliative care, the specialist said kindly. He must have been used to delivering speeches like this and the reaction of patients to the news. There will be some pills for the pain. But there is nothing we can do. I am afraid that the tumour is inoperable.

Dad nodded. He latched on to the pills. They were going to treat him with pills. That’s all he needed to know. The shutters went down again.

We will have a better idea of the state of affairs when we get the bloods back. They will tell us a better picture of what time we have left.

Dad was satisfied. He’d heard all he needed to know. He did not need to know the duration of the death sentence – they were going to treat him with pills. There wasn’t much more to say. It was as if he had blotted everything else out. He did not want to hear it. The specialist told us to check in with the receptionist and book another appointment. He would send a prescription through to Dad’s own doctor. Dad allowed himself to be shepherded out through the door. Our appointment was over – except it wasn’t quite over for me. I needed to know more. I waved dad off to the receptionist to see about his follow-up and stayed behind for a quiet word with the specialist. He seemed prepared for this, even glad. He must have done it a thousand times.

‘How long?’ I asked.

‘Two months – maybe four’, he told me. ‘The bloods will tell us a bit more. It is hard to be exact. Everybody is different.’

‘Is there nothing you can do?’ I asked – I mean I had to ask, didn’t I?

‘I’m sorry’, he said. ‘There is nothing we can do. It is much too advanced.’

‘Would it have made any difference if he had come in three months ago?’ I had to know. If I had done something about it back then, at Christmas. If I had noticed.

‘I doubt it,’ he said diplomatically. ‘The symptoms are largely silent on this type of cancer until it is far too late to do anything about it. It is rare for us to be able to treat a cancer of this nature.’

That did not make me feel much better and certainly did not let that sad excuse for a doctor off the hook; he had been utterly reprehensible. Something needed doing about that smug git. I thought I might just be the person to do it.

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Fighting Words

by Opher Goodwin  

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Fighting Words – an extract

I think this one has to be recited out loud!

Too Much News Blues

I’m drowning in news

                Coming at me from all corners.

Plenty of views

                Trying their hardest to warn us.

Putin is dying.

                Trump is bound to lose.

Gaza is frying.

                I’ve got the too much news blues.

The planet’s heating up.

                Trump’s turning up the gas.

Drinking from an evil cup

                Dancing to rotten jazz.

Can’t turn on the TV

                Without blown up tank crews

Death and destruction:

                I’ve got the too much news blues.

The Tories left a black hole.

                The Republicans are all mad.

Results wrong in every poll.

                Feels like we’ve been had.

Wallowing through the info

                Trying not to blow a fuse.

Seeking out the truth

                 I’ve got the too much news blues.

Billionaires spread disinformation

                Manipulating us.

Brain inflammation:.

                Thrown under the bus.

Scratting a living

                Paying all our dues.

Life is unforgiving.

                I’ve got the too much news blues.

Opher – 15.11.2024

Never has a world been so full of news and reporting. Never has there been so much disinformation. Various factions vie to tell us lies. Governments and politicians, businessmen and media. Most of it is wrong; some of it is deliberate misinformation meant to confuse us.

Algorithms kick in to boost whatever view we take.

Our beliefs are magnified, nurtured and distorted.

We’re being manipulated by devious people for their gain.

Nothing is clear. Nothing is black and white.

We’re being lied to.

We can’t believe anything.

Conspiracy gets dafter by the minute.

It threatens the very fabric of society.

                 I’ve got the too much news blues.

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Fighting words. Fighting life. Fighting meaning. Life not death.
Fighting justice, fighting freedom, Fighting for breath.
Fighting arrogance, fighting violence, Fighting Hate.
Fighting for my principles before it’s all too late!
Fighting greed, fighting oppression, for fairness and ice-cream!
Fighting for fun, for love, for tolerance – fighting ‘til I scream!
Words are my weapons. Words have many meanings.
I’m fighting words. I’m fighting words.
These are my words.

Fighting Words – Available in Kindle!

These are my words: You can borrow them for a mere £2.88! They might slither their way into your consciousness! They are fighting words. I am always fighting words.

Fighting words. Fighting life. Fighting meaning. Life not death.
Fighting justice, fighting freedom, Fighting for breath.
Fighting arrogance, fighting violence, Fighting Hate.
Fighting for my principles before it’s all too late!
Fighting greed, fighting oppression, for fairness and ice-cream!
Fighting for fun, for love, for tolerance – fighting ‘til I scream!
Words are my weapons. Words have many meanings.
I’m fighting words. I’m fighting words.
These are my words.

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I believe – 53 and imploding

I wrote this antinovel as a flow of consciousness. It was a spotlight into the convoluted internal world of a mind. All life and death. Everything. This represents a position on a map, fixed in time. Nothing more.

Excerpt – 53 and imploding:

I love those Neolithic mounds, shrouded in mystery.

I believe in love, laughter, awe, wonder, friendship, fun, respect, empathy, craziness, sex, help, friendliness, highs, contentment, change, responsibility, tolerance, kindness, happiness.

I believe that if we were able to build a mound based on these sorts of things it would be a truly happy fulfilled mound.

It’s just a list but it’s what I build my life on. I don’t have to think about it, plan it out, or strive towards it; it comes naturally to me. I don’t have to form a sect, join a cult or follow anybody, believe in the divine or the mystical – I merely stand back and look around me.

I am the watcher.

I used to believe in spirituality but that’s been replaced by a sense of wonder and mystery. I try not to hold it against anyone but I don’t want it shoved down my throat or imposed on everybody. I am angered by the blatant indoctrination of children. If you believe it then accept that it’s a personal thing – write it in a book, talk to anyone who enquires but shut the fuck up when you’re on my doorstep, in my schools or running my mound! Keep your fucking endorphin rushes for your own junky heaven leave me to my own dope!

I don’t believe in violence or retribution even though I feel them strongly enough within myself. I often want to kill the people who are carrying out the barbarous acts and not one of them has killed one of mine! I can’t imagine. I am infuriated constantly by cruelty and selfish greed. I am infuriated. WHY WHY WHY!!!! There has to be a better way. Hurting doesn’t make you happy. But it seems to for a lot of people. We love pain!

I repress my anger because I have no wish to be consumed by hatred. I have no wish to become violent.

I hate religion. Religion is probably equal with nationalism as the joint most evil inventions of mankind. Sure it would be nice to have a purpose in life. But a special, personal relationship with God – the chosen ones, the true believers, the spawn of the deities – come the fuck on! Hasn’t history, littered with dead religions, chosen ones fallen by the wayside, decapitated statues of gods, taught us anything? Religion is made by people for power.

It makes me laugh when I hear the twats talking about the mighty Allah giving them victory, God wills it, and all that ridiculous shit. You don’t hear them asking why God hates them when someone else bombs the fuck out of them and they lose. You don’t hear the ones in the mine say ‘why me?’ – ‘Were my prayers not good enough?’

Ha.

I love friends, conflicts and argument but I feel the need to be alone a lot of the time.

I’m 53 and have discovered that age brings some perspective but not necessarily any greater clarity. The complexities you discover cloud the certainties you used to hold dear.

Every second ticks. Every step is closer to the final step.

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