In Search of Captain Beefheart – A Rock Memoir – available in Hardcover/Paperback/Kindle

I really enjoyed writing this book. It charts a journey that started for me at the age of ten – my love of rock music. I bought my first singles at the age of ten – Buddy Holly and Adam Faith. I bought my first album at the age of eleven – The Shadows Greatest Hits. I saw my first live band at the age of fourteen – the (British) Birds. Them were my second live band. I never looked back. Hooked on the excitement. I was addicted.

In the late sixties I was immersed in the sixties underground scene and saw everyone – from Roy Harper to Hendrix and Cream. I used to see Pink Floyd, Led Zeppelin and Free in pubs, Jackson C Frank, Al Stewart and John Martyn at Les Cousins and was invited to Abbey Road studios for Roy Harper’s fabulous recording sessions. Meeting and talking to major rock stars behind the scenes and purchasing twelve thousand vinyl albums seemed like paradise. I saw a lot of the old blues guys, the folk guys and all the major bands. Life rocked.

This book is my attempt to capture it in words.

It’s probably my most successful book. You might find it entertaining!

Preface

Jack White launched into the searing riff that was the intro to ‘Death Letter Blues’. It shot me straight back to 1968 and the thrill of seeing and hearing Son House. Son’s national steel guitar was more ragged than Jack White’s crystal clear electric chords, and nowhere near as loud, but the chords rang true and the energy and passion were exactly the same.

Meg pounded the drums and the crowd surged forward.

It was Bridlington Spa in 2004. White Stripes were the hottest thing on the planet. The place was packed and the atmosphere electric. I was right near the front – the only place to be at any gig – the place where the intensity was magnified.

It was a huge crowd and they were crazy tonight. I could see the young kids piling into the mosh-pit and shoving – excited groups of kids deliberately surging like riot cops in a wedge driving into the crowd and sending them reeling so that they tumbled and spilled. For the first time I started getting concerned. The tightly packed kids in the mosh-pit were roaring and bouncing up and down and kept being propelled first one way and then another as the forces echoed and magnified through the mass of people. At the front the crush was intense and everyone was careering about madly. My feet were off the ground as we were sent hurtling around. I had visions of someone getting crushed, visions of someone falling and getting trampled. Worst of all – it could be me!

For the first time in forty odd years of gigs I bailed out. I ruefully headed for the balcony and a clear view of the performance. I didn’t want a clear view I wanted to be in the thick of the action. It got me wondering – was I getting to old for this lark? My old man had only been a couple of years older than me when he’d died. Perhaps Rock Music was for the young and I should be at home listening to opera or Brahms with an occasional dash of Wagner to add the spice. I had become an old git. Then I thought – FUCK IT!!! Jack White was fucking good! Fuck Brahms – This was Rock ‘n’ Roll. You’re never too old to Rock! And Rock was far from dead!

The search goes on!!

We haven’t got a clue what we’re looking for but we sure as hell know when we’ve found it.

Rock music has not been the backdrop to my entire adult life; it’s been much more than that. It has permeated my life, informed it and directed its course.

From when I was a small boy I found myself enthralled. I was grabbed by that excitement. I wanted more. I was hunting for the best Rock jag in the world! – The hit that would send the heart into thunder and melt the mind into ecstasy.

I was hunting for Beefheart, Harper, House, Zimmerman and Guthrie plus a host of others even though I hadn’t heard of them yet.

I found them and I’m still discovering them. I’m sixty four and looking for more!

Forget your faith, hope and charity – give me Sex, Drugs and Rock ‘n’ Roll and the greatest of these is Rock ‘n’ Roll!

I was a kid in the Thames Delta, with pet crow called Joey, 2000 pet mice (unnamed), a couple of snakes, a mammoth tusk, a track bike with a fixed wheel, a friend called Mutt who liked blowing up things, a friend called Billy who kept a big flask of pee in the hopes of making ammonia, and a lot of scabs on my knees.

My search for the heart of Rock began in 1959 and I had no idea what I was looking for when I started on this quest. Indeed I did not know I had embarked on a search for anything. I was just excited by a new world that opened up to me; the world of Rock Music. My friend Clive Hansell also had no idea what he was initiating when he introduced me to the sounds he was listening to. Clive was a few years older than me. He liked girls and he liked Popular Music. Yet he seemed to have limited tastes. I can only ever remembering him playing me music by two artists – namely Adam Faith and Buddy Holly. In some ways it was a motley introduction to the world of Rock ‘n’ Roll.

I was ten years old which would have made Clive about twelve or thirteen, I suppose he could even have been fourteen. That is quite a lot of years at that age. We used to got off to his bedroom, sit on the bed and he’d play me the singles – 45s – on his Dansette player. He’d stack four or five singles on the deck push the lever up to play and we’d lean forward and watch intently. The turntable would start rotating; the mechanism clunked as the arm raised, there were clicks and clunks as the arm drew back and the first single dropped, then the arm would come across and descend on to the outer rim of the disc. The speaker would hiss and crackle and then the music kicked in. We watched the process intently every time as if it depended on our full attention.

The Adam Faith singles were on Parlaphone and were red with silver writing. The Buddy Holly was on Coral with a black label and silver writing. We reverentially watched the discs spinning and listened with great concentration to every aspect of the songs. It was a start.

Yet Rock ‘n’ Roll was by no means the only quest I’d started on. I was an early developer. I’d hit puberty at ten and can imagine myself as the scruffy little, dirty-faced kid who climbed trees, waded through ditches, got covered in frogspawn and lichen and was suddenly sprouting pubic hair – very confusing.

Life was going to change for me. I was in a transition phase.

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Intro

The sixties raged. I was young, crazy, full of hormones and wanting to snatch life by the balls. There was a life out there for the grabbing and it had to be wrestled into submission. There was a society full of boring amoral crap and a life to be had in the face of the mind-numbing vision of slow death on offer.

Rock music vented all that passion.

This book is a memoir of a life spent immersed in Rock Music. I was born in 1949 and so lived through the whole gamut of Rock.

Rock music formed the background to momentous world events – the Civil Rights Movement, Vietnam War, Iraq war, Watergate, the miners’ strike and Thatcher years, CND, the Green Movement, Mao and the Cultural Revolution, Women’s Liberation and the Cold War.

I see this as the Rock Era.

I was immersed in Rock music. It was fused into my personality. It informed me, transformed me and inspired me. My heroes were musicians. I am who I am because of them.

Without Rock Music I would not have the same sensibilities, optimism or ideals. They woke me up!

This tells that story.

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Extract – In Search of Captain Beefheart – A Rock Music Memoir – teaching the next generation

teaching the next generation

Somehow in life you have to leave a legacy. There comes a time when you have to leave off doing things and pass them along to the next generation. I’ve just come in from cutting down a big broken branch on our large cherry tree. It involved climbing up to the top of the tree with a saw and cutting through the large split bough that was dangerously dangling. I couldn’t help but notice that at approaching the age of sixty five I was not quite as nimble as I had been as a young cub-scout. It did give me a brief moment of pleasure to find that I can get just as dirty with green lichen as ever. Liz will have a moan about me being in my best jumper and jeans. What the hell. Things don’t change.

Yet they do.

We get old and cease to function as well. The eyes go. The ears deteriorate and the words and memories do not flow as easily as they once did.

Soon I won’t be heading for the front.

Soon I won’t be heading anywhere at all.

My kids had it tough. They found it quite hard to rebel during those troublesome teenage years – though they all seemed to manage in their own sweet way. Whatever music they might want to get to like their old man had it in spades. My collection was extensive.

Hester responded by not really getting into music at all.

The two older boys got into Hip-Hop and break-dancing. It was all the trend when they were little. They carried a little square of rolled up lino around with them and practiced doing robot dancing, moon-walking, turtles and spinning on their head. I think they thought the back-streets of Hull were synonymous with the Bronx. They also figured that as I hated all the post-punk synthesiser crap it was good to get into the pretty-boy Pop of Duran Duran.

Dylan did go on to appreciate Harper and a range of decent music and Barnaby really got into the Madchester sound of Stone Roses, Ian Brown and then the grunge of Nirvana. Sadly I was sceptical of all of those but later began to really appreciate them. He didn’t have such bad taste after all.

Henry, probably because he was the youngest, was the one who appreciated my tastes the most. I took him to his first Roy Harper gig at the age of six and he has grown up with both Roy and Nick Harper. When he was in his late teens I started to try to give him a sound education.

I took him to the Love gigs which he thought were brilliant. He actually ended up going back to the hotel room with Arthur Lee and spending time with him. I took Henry to see the Magic Band and he pronounced that they were the best live band ever. He went to loads of their gigs and took all his friends along. After long years of driving them crazy in the car with endless tapes of Beefheart he had finally come to see the genius of it.

I then took him along to see some good old Rock ‘n’ Roll before all the old guys died off. We went to see Chuck and Jerry Lee in Bradford. They were both still great in their seventies. Chuck was still duck-walking and doing his stances. Jerry wasn’t quite so flamboyant. He no longer climbed on his piano or stood and shook his hair so violently but he did kick his piano stool away in one number and was still pounding those keys.

The strangest one of all was taking Henry to a Little Richard gig again in Bradford. It was a weird one. Little Richard looked as if he was showing his years. He shuffled more than rocked, but he still had the voice and did do some great Rock ‘n’ Roll. He was the master when he got going. The weird stuff was all the evangelical Christianity. I really don’t get this American fanaticism with Jesus. They must have cottoned on that there isn’t going to be any second coming – it was all just another Middle Eastern sect – one of many. Little Richard dispensed these books on Christianity to everyone. I think I threw mine away. The other strange aspect was all the very camp gay bit. Somehow it did not quite all gel together. What a strange mix that was – bawdy Rock – cloying Christianity – and camp gay posturing. We then went round the corner for the capitalist bit and paid a princely sum to get a poster signed. But hey – we got to see a legend!

Most Popular Rock Music Memoir now available as Hardback – In Search of Captain Beefheart 

I have spent some time rejigging photos in order to create a new, fully improved, hardback version of my popular Rock Music Memoir In Search of Captain Beefheart (Spoiler – it’s not really much about Captain Beefheart). It tells the story of my obsession with Rock Music and gigs from the early sixties through!

A couple of reviews explain it:

We move from the rock of a 2004 White Stripes gig to the deep blues of Son House performing in 1968 in the very first paragraph, which gives some idea of the huge range of personal and musical experience covered in this always lively and thoroughly engaging personal testimony. We are taken on a freewheeling and cheerfully anarchic journey across time and space from the earliest days of rock’n’roll through the vibrant 60s and its many musical offshoots and current influences, with every anecdote giving ample evidence for the author’s central idea – that music transforms and inspires like nothing else, forging an organic link with our own lives and even the politics and beliefs we live by. There are sharp, vivid, honest and cheerfully scatological portraits of his musical heroes with warm praise and candid criticism providing the salty ring of truth. The book has wry down-to-earth humour, a breakneck momentum, mostly good musical taste, fascinating gossip, strong opinions, passionate loves and equally passionate hates – and there’s not a dull moment in it. Written with a warm and generous spirit, in the end it amounts to a radical critique of much more than music. It captures the modern zeitgeist with zest and courage. Recommended.

The title is a little misleading; as it is not a book about Beefheart , but rather an account of growing up through the 60s and 70s in Britain. For people like myself 60+ year’s of age and like the author, a keen collector of records and tapes, this book will have a deep resonance. It was like living my early years of music all over again, as Mr. Goodwin kept mentioning the recording artists that I knew.
An enjoyable read, made for the coach, train, or ‘plane trip.

Thought some of you might like a hardback copy!

In Search of Captain Beefheart – Paperback, Hardback and Digital

The sixties raged. I was young, crazy, full of hormones and wanting to snatch life by the balls. There was a life out there for the grabbing and it had to be wrestled into submission. There was a society full of boring amoral crap and a life to be had in the face of the boring, comforting vision of slow death on offer. Rock music vented all that passion. This book is a memoir of a life spent immersed in Rock Music. I was born in 1949 and so lived through the whole gamut of Rock. Rock music formed the background to momentous world events – the Civil Rights Movement, Vietnam War, Iraq war, Watergate, the miners’ strike and Thatcher years, CND, the Green Movement, Mao and the Cultural Revolution, Women’s Liberation and the Cold War. I see this as the Rock Era. I was immersed in Rock music. It was fused into my personality. It informed me, transformed me and inspired me. My heroes were musicians. I am who I am because of them. Without Rock Music I would not have the same sensibilities, optimism or ideals. They woke me up! This tells that story.

A Rock Music Memoir – In Search of Captain Beefheart – Paperback 

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The sixties raged. I was young, crazy, full of hormones and wanting to snatch life by the balls. There was a life out there for the grabbing and it had to be wrestled into submission. There was a society full of boring amoral crap and a life to be had in the face of the boring, comforting vision of slow death on offer. Rock music vented all that passion. This book is a memoir of a life spent immersed in Rock Music. I was born in 1949 and so lived through the whole gamut of Rock. Rock music formed the background to momentous world events – the Civil Rights Movement, Vietnam War, Iraq war, Watergate, the miners’ strike and Thatcher years, CND, the Green Movement, Mao and the Cultural Revolution, Women’s Liberation and the Cold War. I see this as the Rock Era. I was immersed in Rock music. It was fused into my personality. It informed me, transformed me and inspired me. My heroes were musicians. I am who I am because of them. Without Rock Music I would not have the same sensibilities, optimism or ideals. They woke me up! This tells that story.

In Search of Captain Beefheart – Paperback, Kindle

The sixties raged. I was young, crazy, full of hormones and wanting to snatch life by the balls. There was a life out there for the grabbing and it had to be wrestled into submission. There was a society full of boring amoral crap and a life to be had in the face of the boring, comforting vision of slow death on offer.
Rock music vented all that passion.
This book is a memoir of a life spent immersed in Rock Music. I was born in 1949 and so lived through the whole gamut of Rock.
Rock music formed the background to momentous world events – the Civil Rights Movement, Vietnam War, Iraq war, Watergate, the miners’ strike and Thatcher years, CND, the Green Movement, Mao and the Cultural Revolution, Women’s Liberation and the Cold War.
I see this as the Rock Era.
I was immersed in Rock music. It was fused into my personality. It informed me, transformed me and inspired me. My heroes were musicians. I am who I am because of them.
Without Rock Music I would not have the same sensibilities, optimism or ideals. They woke me up!
This tells that story.

A Rock Music Memoir – In Search of Captain Beefheart – another short extract.

From when I was a small boy I found myself enthralled. I was grabbed by that excitement. I wanted more. I was hunting for the best Rock jag in the world! – The hit that would send the heart into thunder and melt the mind into ecstasy.

I was hunting for Beefheart, Harper, House, Zimmerman and Guthrie plus a host of others even though I hadn’t heard of them yet.

I found them and I’m still discovering them. I’m sixty four and looking for more!

Forget your faith, hope and charity – give me Sex, Drugs and Rock ‘n’ Roll and the greatest of these is Rock ‘n’ Roll!

I was a kid in the Thames Delta, with pet crow called Joey, 2000 pet mice (unnamed), a couple of snakes, a mammoth tusk, a track bike with a fixed wheel, a friend called Mutt who liked blowing up things, a friend called Billy who kept a big flask of pee in the hopes of making ammonia, and a lot of scabs on my knees.

My search for the heart of Rock began in 1959 and I had no idea what I was looking for when I started on this quest. Indeed I did not know I had embarked on a search for anything. I was just excited by a new world that opened up to me; the world of Rock Music. My friend Clive Hansell also had no idea what he was initiating when he introduced me to the sounds he was listening to. Clive was a few years older than me. He liked girls and he liked Popular Music. Yet he seemed to have limited tastes. I can only ever remembering him playing me music by two artists – namely Adam Faith and Buddy Holly. In some ways it was a motley introduction to the world of Rock ‘n’ Roll.

More ‘In Search of Captain Beefheart’ – Captain Beefheart and my bank manager.

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A strange thing happened in the 1990s. I was surprised to hear that my bank manager wanted to see me. He was after doing a home visit. This was probably not a good thing. I surmised that he was going to bring up my debts!

Sure enough, after he’d settled down at the kitchen table, he brought out all his data and started pointing out the size of my increasing overdraft. He tactfully pointed out that my outgoings exceeded my income.

I agreed that this did appear to be the case.

He wondered how this might be rectified.

I did not know.

He inquired what I might be able to do that might increase my income.

I pointed out that being a teacher I did not get any overtime no matter how many extra hours I put in.

He nodded sagely.

I told him that I had done some adult education classes in the past.

His ears pricked up – how much did I get paid for them?

I explained that I’d run these ‘History of Rock Music’ classes. They had paid well but I had lost money.

History of Rock Music? He was interested! How had I lost money?

I explained that it had meant the purchase of an extra three thousand vinyl albums to bolster the gaps in my collection. It had been great but I’d ended up with a great collection and a worse financial situation.

By this time the finances seemed to have gone to one side. He wanted to know what I had covered in my course. I explained that I’d done everything from Son House to Captain Beefheart and beyond.

His eyes lit up! Captain Beefheart – I’d said the magic word.

My bank manager was a Captain Beefheart nut. The rest of the evening was spent looking at my collection, playing tracks and reminiscing!

We subsequently went to a few Nick Harper gigs and exchanged a few albums. A cool bank manager!

In Search of Captain Beefheart – Mining in the Underground – 60s

Mining in the Underground – 60s

Being weird was a profession. The 60s Underground was an alternative society, a bunch of brothers and sisters who were readily identifiable; a camaraderie that meant you shared everything; a sense of fun; a tolerance for new ideas, difference, new experience; a different morality; a wish to travel, experience and live; a joie de vivre; a wish to chuck out the old rules and live in a better way. We were naïve and innocent but we were happy.

  Opher & Liz 1968

We’d looked at the boring drab lives of our parents; at the humdrum of suburbia; the class system and soulless prostitution of work; the cycle of war and exploitation; we’d seen the intolerance, bigotry and arrogance and we thought we could do better. You could see the way the chips were stacked that it was impossible to change the system, the establishment was established and as immovable as a mountain. Therefore we would drop out of it and do our own thing.

When you walked round town and saw some dude coming towards you sporting hair and colour you knew you could go across, introduce yourself and have a good chat. There was an energy and camaraderie. We were in the same tribe, unified against the machine, digging the same vibe.

When I was in Boston it was quicker to hitch-hike round town than to get on a tram or bus. A lot of the Freaks were taxi drivers and they would pick you up for free. The creed of the Underground was to share and look after each other.

The problem was that doing your own thing meant scrabbling around for somewhere to live and something to live off. There were numerous little cottage industries in making belts, beads, scarves, clothes, candles and paraphernalia. There was always room for a little dealing, squatting, panhandling and dole. Failing that you could head off into the country and try your hand at self-sufficiency.

Dropping out of the system was fraught with problems unless you were a talented musician and could make it in a band.

Fortunately for me I was exempt from those kinds of concerns. I was a student. All I had to worry about was how to eke out a modest grant (I believe it was £110 a term) to pay rent on a shared room, eat, put petrol in my vehicle (currently a comer cob van hand-painted bright yellow) and still gain me access to three gigs a week and second-hand vinyl. In order to achieve this I worked as a road sweeper in the summer and for a year I worked all Friday night, six pm to six am, in Lyons bakery. It gave me a great deal of freedom though I did have to go in and catch at least half of my lectures or they would throw me out!

I chose my college, out of a very limited choice due to my poor grades at A Level, because when I walked in for interview it had a poster for Roy Harper in the entrance.

 Opher 1967 – University application photo with hair carefully combed back out of the way.

I walked in to the refectory at our induction and made a beeline for a table where I befriended two mad characters in Jules and Pete who became friends for life. Funny how the subconscious works!

Every week we would study the NME for gigs and select what was best. There was at least one mandatory Harper gig and the scope for the others was amazing. Everyone was playing non-stop all the time! At the time we thought it would never end. Unfortunately it did end.

It left me feeling that I wish I had been more organised, selective and systematic. There were so many great acts that I never got to see. It was always that I’d see them next week. Thus Lennon, Howlin’ Wolf, Lightnin’ Hopkins, and Screaming Jay Hawkins slipped through the net. However I did see most and had the pleasure of seeing them in small clubs and getting backstage to have a chat. Security did not exist back then and the bands were still one with the audience. We were all freaks creating an alternative culture. That rapidly went out the window.

So, let me see? What is the best way of explaining this? (If only I’d had a camera, taken notes or something – memories are so febrile).

OK – I’ll ramble because that is pretty much what it was like back then. I’ll go over the whole thing from 1967 to 1971 when the dream was finally over (though we kept pretending for a year or two more!). I’ll mix up venues and bands.

First there was the college circuit. Various universities put on gigs via their entertainment committees. These were usually bunches of Freaks who wanted to get their hands on all the best bands and because the best bands were cheap they could get just about anybody. So my college (Barking – later North East London Poly) put on regular concerts by the likes of Roy Harper, Al Stewart, the Prettythings, Third Ear Band, Slade and the like. I went to most of these although I gave Slade a miss because I considered them lightweight. Entry was usually about 4 shillings – 20p.

Other colleges put on just about everyone so I made a habit of catching Edgar Broughton, Davey Graham, Pink Floyd, Fleetwood Mac, Traffic, Family, Muddy Waters and Jimmy Reed.

Then there were the pubs that put halls aside for concerts. The Fishmongers Arms in Wood Green put on Pink Floyd and Man. The Toby Jug had a regular Blues Night with John Mayall, Chicken Shack, Jethro Tull, Led Zeppelin, Fleetwood Mac, Aynsley Dunbar and the like. Though they were more expensive and charged 5 shillings – 25p.

There was Eel-Pie Island who had bands like Blossom Toes and Pink Floyd.

Then there were venues like the Mecca ballrooms that would put on Family and Arthur Brown.

The Freak venues were the all night clubs like the Marquee, UFO, Middle Earth and Klooks Kleek. They would do everything from Pink Floyd, Hendrix, Cream, to visiting West Coast Bands. An all night gig might have three top bands on such as Traffic, Soft Machine and Pink Floyd and might cost 10 shillings – 50p.

It was non-stop and there was always choice. I find it hard to imagine that back then I was choosing between Pink Floyd, Fleetwood Mac or Lennon playing the Lyceum with a host of other possibilities (many of whom I would now die for) bringing up the rear. There was even the odd occasion when you couldn’t be bothered.

On top of that you had the free gigs, benefits, happenings and such – like a regular Hyde Park hosted by Roy Harper and featuring Edgar Broughton, Deviants, Pink Fairies, Pink Floyd, Action, Third Ear Band, Soft Machine, Family, Jethro Tull, etc etc etc. and then the biggies with Blind Faith and the Stones.

Then there were the weekend festivals. They were really pricey though – a three day festival might set you back thirty shillings – £1.50.

Then there were things like the Electric Cinema, the Lyceum, Les Cousins, the Three Horseshoes Pub on Tottenham Court Road, the Barge at Kingston and various small clubs around like one out near Sunbury where were used to go and catch Mayall regularly.

In between all this you had to hang out with your mates playing each other music, sharing music and talking about music, politics, relevant news issues, social situations, mysticism and the nature of infinity, the universe and life, and reading.

Apart from Kerouac and the Beats there were the Freak activists like Jerry Rubin, Eldridge Cleaver, Bobby Seale, Abbie Hoffman, George Jackson and Angela Davies. There were my Sci-Fi novels and other novels to read. There was OZ and IT to get through. I tell you, man, life was hard! I don’t know how I fitted it all in. No wonder I had to stay up most of the night. Oh, if only I had recorded some of those all-night raps! It’s a wonder I got to college at all! My education was had in my own room.

 Beatific Opher 1971

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