Extract from Reflections From A Ditch – the introduction

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I called this a synopsis. It isn’t. Nothing is what it seems. We’re all in a ditch.

Synopsis

            Sex, death, awe, wonder, fury, birth, life, beauty, politics, religion, anger, nature, love, questions, stories and thoughts are all words. I had to rearrange their meanings.

You live your life and then you die. You start a journey that will not end as you expect. From a childhood spent in ditches to a lonesome wait in a ditch. You think you understand. You have relationships with people, animals, possessions and places but you can only guess at the other side. You are aware. You have a moral code you live by. You see how good things could be and, when you wear your Sunday best, you do your bit to make it happen. Your life is measured in seconds but how much of it has significance? You laugh and enjoy. You think and wonder. You create and destroy. Sometimes you are fulfilled and often you are frustrated; most of the time you are simply bored or engaged in the mundane. The things that stand out are oases in a desert of forgotten ordinariness.

This is a story of a crash.

Opher 26.6.00

Writing – What do I need?

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There are a lot of things that I need right now.

Let me count the ways:

  1. I need the time and energy to complete my writing projects
  2. I need a Literary Agent to appear on a great stallion with contract in hand – which says ‘Have no fear. I will take on all the rotten parts and make the stink of proof-reading, editing, marketing, selling and business all melt away’ – Sign here.
  3. I need a publisher to arrive unbidden on a spaceship with a contract in hand which says – ‘Sign here in blood. I am desperate for sixty novels from a strange quirky man who refuses to do things the normal way, who writes about whatever comes into his head in any genre, style he likes but is authentic.’
  4. I need clever souls who will want to read my books, proofread and edit to make them perfect. (Volunteers?)
  5. I need hundreds of people to write brilliant reviews on Amazon.
  6. I need thousands of people to buy my books and provide me with the audience I crave.
  7. I need to hold my fifty precious babies, feel great about them, proud and happy, and know they are being properly cared for in new homes all over the world
  8. I need to feel that I have contributed to a positive zeitgeist and helped change the world for the better.

That’s all. Not much to ask. Is it?

Writing – when and how?

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Ideas come and ideas go.

I find that I am often inspired by something, and that could be anything from a TV programme, news report, photo, memory, song or talking with someone, or else they come out of the blue. When I get an idea I want to write it straight away. It is almost a compulsion. But usually this is inconvenient. If I don’t capture it then it is often gone forever. Sometimes I can return to an idea and recapture the feel and enthusiasm, often I cannot.

I take to walking about with a notepad and collecting my ideas. That usually works. I sit in front of the TV with a notepad near by. I have another at the side of the bed. Sometimes I have a few poems on the go and sometimes one will spark up and generate a few straight off. I often work from my notes. Though I sometimes find that when an idea is ‘fresh’ the whole piece flows and is bright and easy. If I have to note it down and get back to it then it is sometimes clunky and does not flow.

I get bored easy and like to keep a few projects going simultaneously so that I can move between them as the mood takes me. At this moment in time I have eight writing projects for books and I am reading two books. It is somehow compartmentalised. I can do that with rewrites or factual books, anecdotes and poems. If the concept is already there or the pieces are short and self-contained. I could not do that with a novel. That requires complete focus and attention and all my mind. I hold it in my head like a huge jigsaw puzzle.

The idea for this piece for this blog post came to me yesterday evening just as I was going to bed. I jotted it on an old envelop which I discovered this morning. I had already forgotten about it.

The things that inspire me are varied. They could be something beautiful or something that has moved me. They could be ideas. You can see the range from a look through my blog. I write about what I am interested in, what angers me or fills me with despair or what I find humorous and intriguing.

Writing is fulfilling for me. It is a compulsion that I find is necessary for my sanity. It gives me great pleasure. I also write as a means of communication and to change the things I am appalled by. By sharing we grow, we understand and we impact on the world around us.

I believe we can change the zeitgeist and make the world a better place.

Writing – Marketing my books – the difficulties and tribulation, dilemmas and aggravations.

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I am a writer – not a marketer.

I write in many forms and have accumulated a large catalogue of books in different styles and different genres.

I have written nearly fifty and published about half. There is the dilemma.

I enjoy writing. I do not enjoy marketing. I do not have the time. At present I have eight projects on the go. I’m juggling and loving it. It is the writing that I enjoy.

There does not seem much point in writing if you don’t have an audience. You do not get an audience if you do not market. My only marketing is this blog. Yet I am aware that there is a balance. People who like my blog do not want to be bombarded with sales talk.

I am not seeking wealth or fame. I want to write and I want to influence things that I care about. I am a serious writer. I do want to have an audience and I do need feedback about my writing.

I believe in myself, the quality of my work and the content I put in. I have had sufficient glowing feedback to know that others enjoy it and it is marketable.

So do I take time off from what I love doing to spend weeks marketing? Or do I put my energies into getting a publisher so that they handle all that? Or do I continue along and have the books dribbling along.

Is writing valid if the audience is severely limited?

I am torn.

In the meantime – please leave reviews so that others can see that you have enjoyed the books and send through the feedback. I feed off it.

Thank you to all of you who have left the ‘likes’, encouragement, support and bought my books. You give me hope.

Computers – a boon or an expensive pain?

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This is an incarnation of me soaring above the travails of today.

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Or is it this – me contemplating the emptiness of my hard drives?

I got up this morning to discover 2 of my hard drives were down. I’ve got four set up on RAID loaded to the gills with photos, music and all my writing (30 of my books – not all of them published). The RAID was supposed to have them backed up and protected. For two drives to go down at the same time is extremely rare.

It just goes to show that Sod’s Law operates. Whatever can go wrong invariably does.

So now I’m moping about wondering what can be recovered, what the cost will be and what will be irretrievably lost.

Computers are a pain. No sooner have you got them out of the shop than they have been superseded and are obsolete. You have them for a few measly years and they run slower and slower and need upgrading. They cost a fortune. And even if you have taken precautions they invariably go wrong and you lose precious, irreplaceable files.

Computers are a boon. You can Google, find stuff on the internet, blog, email, communicate, contact like-minded people, interact, store your memories, books, music, photos, writing. You can rewrite and edit in a way that you can’t on a typewriter. They are amazing.

Do they save time? No way!  I spent so much more time on my computer than I ever did before. But it is so much more productive.

Right now I’m grieving for things I may well have lost forever. I’m also contemplating that enormous bill.

This is not a good day. I’ll try and put it to one side. What you cannot change must be endured.

It’s not the end of the world. I’ll just have to write more.

My Days of Writing.

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My Days of Writing

After I’d left college in 1971 my girlfriend (now wife) and I started out on our world tour by hitch-hiking and working as a dish-washer and waitress, respectively, in the States for three months. We had numerous adventures and arrived back penniless and glowing.

Reality intruded. I was hit with the realisation that I had to get a job in order to earn some money. The student grant was gone. The real world beckoned.

I worked as a road-sweeper, warehouseman, animal house and laboratory technician. That was good. I was filling in time until we could resume our travels and adventures.

I’d started writing and painting in 1970. Somehow I had this idea that I could be content being creative and get by. It was not to be. We had our children. I ended up teaching and loved every minute of it (barring a few). It suited me to the ground. I am naturally exuberant, quick with the repartee and have a touch of quirky humour. I was the rebel the kids got on with.

But the writing was addictive. I still harboured dreams of being a writer and would happily have typed away in poverty if I could have scraped a living. That also was not to be.

The teaching was fun and exhausting but I’d promised myself that I would always save some energy for creative projects. The ideas stormed in my head and I found myself scribbling them down in classrooms, staff meetings and journeys. I wrote book after book.

At first I eagerly sent them in to publishers and collected the rejection slips. When one was picked up to be professionally read it was a great day. When one got taken up for publication we bought the kids Christmas presents with the promised cheque. The cheque never arrived. Somehow we absorbed the debt and I no longer sent off the books.

I came home from work, played with the kids and got them to bed, watched an hour or two of telly and around ten or eleven I got down to writing. I wrote until two or three in the morning and was up the next day at seven. I’d do that for three months at a time until I had a novel finished. I then threw the manuscript in a drawer and recovered before starting out on the next.

By the time I retired I had amassed forty books. I’d had a couple of science things published with Oxford University Press but I’d saved my fiction, biography and other weird things for later.

My career blossomed and my radical ideas were taken on and produced outstanding results. I felt like I was running Summerhill. I became Head and proved that you could be outstanding while treating young men like human beings and developing their social awareness. The community was buzzing and the kids beamed. Respect, tolerance, love, empathy and responsibility blossomed. My energy was channelled into making the world a better place.

I promised myself that when I retired I would rewrite all my books and look to publishing them. That is what I am doing.

My retirement is being spent reading, writing and travelling. That seems ideal to me. I mix that with friends, relatives, our children and grandchildren, a spot of wine, a laugh, a lot of loud gigs, a bunch of photographs, an argument, a film and my blog. I just wish I had more time in the day, more energy and the exuberance of youth.

I have been retired four years and have rewritten and written twenty four books so far. I’m working my way through.

I have a cunning plan.

I will write up all forty seven. I will edit and proof, publish on Amazon and then look to market and publish properly.

I’m not looking for a new career. I’m quite content. I want a creative outlet. I want an audience. I want to express my ideas, thoughts and feelings; I want to give vent to my passions. I seem to need that.

I’m not looking for wealth and fame.

I do want to be noticed. I do want my ideas to be valued. I am crazy about Rock Music, Blues, Nature, Animals, Sci-fi, the Sixties, the Environment, Education and Science. My wife says I’m opinionated. She’s usually right.

I just want to change the whole world!

(I only hope I have enough time left!)

A story – Shopping

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When I logged on today my computer reminded me that it was a good day to go shopping. I hadn’t realised that. So I quickly brought up my personal demographic to see what it was that I desperately needed. Unfortunately my personal preferences had become confused. Seemingly I had gone on line yesterday and bought something on a whim that was a long way outside of my normal preferences. It had thrown everything into an electronic dilemma. The centre in cyber-valley was no longer able to decide with certainty which products I required. It was pondering whether to go down this new route, with all the great new markets this opened up, or stick with the tried and tested. It was waiting to see where my next purchase would take me. I could almost sense its baited breath.

Undeterred by the lack of advice I checked what was trending and fortunately managed to buy some of that. I was lucky. Many of these trending products were running out. I just made it.

Quickly analysing my choices my personal demographic kicked in and offered me ten indispensable items which I snapped up with relish. They were different from my normal choices. It told me I was developing as a person. My choices were becoming more diverse and mature.

I was excited by the new opportunities that single purchase had opened up for me and spend a bit longer clicking on a number of items that I hadn’t previously realised that I required.

Eventually I was sated. I’d explored the avenues and made the choices. They’d be winging their way to me over the next few days and I’d be able to review and store my new acquisitions away with all the previous purchases. That was a bit daunting as it would inevitably require me having to make some space for them and that would require a culling. It was always hard deciding what to get rid of.

Never mind.

This shopping is exhausting!

A list of my favourite books.

A list of my Favourite books (limited to 1 per author)

These are in no particular order – just as they come into my head. They are all books I’ve greatly enjoyed reading for different reasons. Some make you think. Some make you feel. Some get you lost in a great story. Some make historical scenes real. Some have brilliant characters. Some are formative. Some are light reading. Some make you laugh …… Reading is the greatest joy. It unfurls worlds in your head and lets you live a thousand lives.

 

Jack Kerouac Dharma Bums
Henry Miller Tropic of Capricorn
John Steinbeck Grapes of Wrath
John Fowles The Magus
Ian McEwan Atonement
Ken Kesey One flew over the cuckoo’s nest
Margaret Atwood The handmaid’s tale
D H Lawrence Women in love
Ernest Hemingway For Whom the bell tolls
Richard Brautigan Trout fishing in America
Iain Banks Whit
Mezz Mezzrow Really the Blues
Alexander Solzshenitsyn A day in the Life of Ivan Denisovitch
Haruko Murukami Norwegian wood
Kazuo Ishiguro Remains of the day
Woody Guthrie Bound for glory
Terry Pratchett The colour of magic
Robert Heilein Stranger in a strange land
George Orwell 1984
Jonathan Frantzen Freedom
J R R Tolkein Lord of the Rings
Lynne Reid-Banks The L-Shaped Room
Kurt Vonnegut jnr Cat’s cradle
William Golding The inheritors
Desmond Morris The Naked Ape
Richard Dawkins The God Delusion
Herman Hesse Steppenwolf
Franz Kafka The Trial
William Burroughs The Naked Lunch
Pat Barker Bird song
Jasper Fforde Something rotten
Gunter Gras The tin drum
Salman Rushdie The Satanic Verses
Joseph Heller Catch 22
Aldous Huxley Island
Nikos Kazantakis Zorba the Greek
Stephen King The Stand
Milan Kundera The unbearable lightness of being
Hilary Mantel Wolf Hall
Nelson Mandela The long walk to freedom
Alan Sillitoe The lonliness of the long distance runner
Will Self Book of Dave
JD Salinger Catcher in the rye
Julian Barnes The sense of an ending
Norman Mailer Miami and the siege of Chicago
Jerry Rubin Do it!
Harper Lee To kill a mocking bird
Andrea Levy Small Island
Stan Barstow A kind of loving
William Faulkner As I lay dying
Robert Tressell The ragged-trousered philanthropists
Joseph Heller Catch 22

 

There’s probably hundreds I’ve missed out. I’ll add to them later! I hope there’s a few that you haven’t heard of that will grab you.

 

What have I missed out?

 

Opher 26.7.2015

Opher Goodwin – One man think tank, photographer, writer, educationalist, environmentalist, artist, poet, traveller, antitheist, Rock musicologist, politician, thinker, novelist and wonderer. Check out his Blog!

Well check out my blog – look at my photos, read my blogs, care about the planet, check out my Rock Music, and read my books.

I’m unique!!

Reviews: –

‘Just what the blurb says!’

4.0 out of 5 stars Forgotten the 60s 5 July 2015
Format:Kindle Edition
If you were there, the 60s that is, and you have forgotten much, and you will have, then this is an interesting memory jogger. It is Chris Goodwins account of the real ‘underground’ music scene of the time and not what is popularly touted to the interested young of today.
If you are genuinely interested in the genesis of modern music and its evolution especially through the 60s and 70s then this is an interesting guide and full of quirky anecdotes which may appeal to the young of all ages
By Me
Format:Paperback
Rock music lovers and anyone who has lived through the sixties and seventies will LOVE this book!

Books I have read in the past four years update – July 2015.

I’ve got a policy of trying to vary my reading. I’m trying to mix new literature with revisiting old favourites, Rock stuff, Sci-fi and non-fiction, light reads and heavier stuff. It’s working well.

I’m having trouble fitting in enough reading because I’m spending such a lot of time writing.

Reading is good for the mind.

If anyone has any suggestions of great reads please pass them on. I’m always open to suggestions.

Books I have read since retiring Sept 2011

 

1.Just Kids Patti Smith
2. Wolf Hall Hilary Mantel
3. Norwegian Wood Haruki Murakami
4. Kafka on the Shore Haruki Murakami
5. Maggie Girl of the Streets Stephen Crane
6. Great Singers of the 2oth Century David Spiller
7. East of Eden John Steinbeck
8. God is not Great Christopher Hitchins
9. The Alchemist Paulo Coelho
10. Full Dark No Stars Stephen King
11. 3 Cups of Tea Greg Mortenson & David Relin
12. Birdie Kurt Vonnegut
13. 11.22.63 Stephen King
14. IQ84 – Book 1 Haruki Murakami
15. IQ84 – Book 2 Haruki Murakami
16. IQ84 – Book 3 Haruki Murakami
17. Good Man Jesus scoundrel Christ Philip Pullman
18. After dark Haruki Murakami
19. After the quake Haruki Murakami
20. Long walk to forever Kurt Vonnegut
21. The Optimist Lawrence Shorter
22. The Atheist’s Bible Joan Konner
23. The portable Atheist Christopher Hitchins
24. The vanishing elephant Haruki Murakami
25. Salmonella men on planet porno Yasutaka Tsutsui
26. The Chrysalids John Wyndham
27. Heart of Darkness Joseph Conrad
28. A long way down Nick Hornby
29. Blind willow, sleeping woman Haruki Murakami
30. My dear I wanted to tell you Louisa Young
31. Grimus Salman Rushdie
32. South of the border West of the sun Haruki Murakami
33. The Return Victoria Hislop
34. Stonemouth Iain Banks
35. The girl at the Lion D’Or Sebastian Faulks
36. The Long Song Andrea Levy
37. Underground Haruki Murakami
38. My Family and other animals Gerald Durrell
39. One Flew over the Cuckoos nest Ken Kessey
40. Hard boiled Wonderland and the end of the world Haruki Murakami
41. Red Gary Neville
42. The colour of Magic Terry Pratchett
43. The light fantastic Terry Pratchett
44. Dance Dance dance Haruki Murakami
45. Portnoy’s complaint Philip Roth
46. The lost Symbol Dan Brown
47. Guards Guards Terry Pratchett
48. What I talk about when I talk about running Haruki Murakami
49. A Maggot John Fowles
50. Who I am Pete Townsend
51. The story of Free & Bad Company Steven Rosen
52. Sputnik Sweetheart Haruki Murakami
53. Mr Stone and the knights companion V S Naipal
54. The immortal life of Henrietta Lacks Rebecca Skloot
55. Mister God, I am Anna Finn
56. The Birthday book Haruki Murakami
57. A precocious autobiography Yevgeny Yevtushenko
58. The wind-up bird chronicles Haruki Murakami
59. Siddharta Herman Hesse
60. Hydrogen Sonatta Iain M Banks
61. The bonesetters daughter Joy Tan
62. Keep the Asphidistr flying George Orwell
63. Birds, animals and friends Gerald Durrell
64. Garden of the Gods Gerald Durrell
65. Andy Warhol Diaries Andy Warhol
66. First born Arthur C Clarke
67. Sweettooth Ian McEwan
68. Arguably Christopher Hitchins
69. Bring up the bodies Hilary Mantell
70. Equal Rites Terry Pratchett
71. Mort Terry Pratchett
72. Cutting for stone Aham Verghese
73. Sourcery Terry Pratchett
74. The particular sadness of lemon cake Aimee Bender
75. The dovekeepers Alice Hoffman
76. The Ginger Man J P Donleavy
77. The great Gatsby F Scott Fitzgerald
78. Dharma bums Jack Kerouac
79. For whom the bell tolls Ernest Hemmingway
80. A wild sheep chase Haruki Murakami
81. Fug you Ed Sanders
82. A hat full of sky Terry Pratchett
83. Ring world Larry Niven
84. Wintersmith Terry Pratchett
85. The Quarry Iain Banks
86. Stoner John Williams
87. Blowing the Blues Dick Heckstall-Smith
88. The heart of things A C Grayling
89. Things the Grandchildren should know Mark Oliver Everett
90. Grapes of Wrath John Steinbeck
91. The Comfort of Strangers Ian McEwan
92. The Trial Franz Kafka
93. Tarantula Bob Dylan
94. Bound for glory Woody Guthrie
95. Flaubert’s parrot Julian Barnes
96. Talking it over Julian Barnes
97. Raw spirit Iain Banks
98. The favourite game Leonard Cohen
99. Beautiful losers Leonard Cohen
100. Corrections Jonathan Frantzen
101. The Stranger Albert Camus
102. The three Musketeers Alexander Dumas
103. After the flood Margaret Atwood
104. Hellraiser Ginger Baker
105. A Casual Vacancy JK Rowling
106. Wind through the Keyhole Stephen King
107. The Ragged Trousered Philantropists Robert Tressell
108. Maddadam Margaret Atwood`
109. Ringworld Engineers Larry Niven
110. The sense of an ending Julian Barnes
111. Ringworld children Larry Niven
112. Breakfast of champions Kurt Vonnegut
113. The blind assassin Margaret Atwood
114. The Midwich Cuckoos John Wyndham
115. The Rights of Man Thomas Paine
116. Wyrd Sisters Terry Pratchett
117. Juliet Naked Nick Hornby
118. Confessions of a crap artist Philip K Dick
119. Doctor Sleep Stephen King
120. White Rooms & imaginary Westerns Pete Brown
121. Moral disorder Margaret Atwood
122. The hare with amber eyes Edmund de Waal
123. Apocalypse D H Lawrence
124. The Cosmological eye Henry Miller
125. The last continent Terry Pratchett
126. Thud Terry Pratchett
127. A tale for the time being Ruth Ozeki
128. Survivor Chum Mey
129. Falling leaves Adeline Yen Mah
130. Catch 22 Joseph Heller
131. Go Now Richard Hell
132. Bluebeard’s egg Margaret Atwood
133. Life before man Margaret Atwood
134. Life after life Kate Atkinson
135. The Who & the story of Tommy Nigel Cawthorne
136. Mr Mercedes Stephen King
137. Umbrella Will Self
138. The Eyre Affair Jasper Fforde
139. The Children’s act Ian McEwan
140. The Magic of Reality Richard Dawkins
141. The Shack Wm Paul Young
142. The last interview Kurt Vonnegutt
143. Strong motion Jonathan Franzen
144. Soul Music Terry Pratchett
145. The sun also rises Ernest Hemingway
146. The Woman who died a lot Jasper Fforde
147. Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki Haruki Murakami
148. On the Road – original scroll Jack Kerouac
149. Discomfort zone Jonathan Frantzen
150. The Establishment and how they get away with it Owen Jones
151. The Kill List Frederick Forsythe
152. The Song of the Quarkbeast Jasper Fforde
153. One of our Thursdays is missing Jasper Fforde
154. No Matter What Sally Donovan
155. The story of my heart Richard Jefferies
156. Time must have a stop Aldous Huxley
157. Immortal coils Kurt Vonnegut
158. Chavs Owen Jones
159. Revival Stephen King
160. In God I doubt John Humphrys
161. Phil Ochs Death of a rebel Marc Elliott
162. In Watermelon Sugar Richard Brautigan
163. Blues for Mr Charlie James Baldwin
164. Stone Mattress Margaret Atwood
165. The Music of Captain Beefheart Chris Wade
166. Something rotten Jasper Fforde