In Search of Captain Beefheart – a memoir of a life immersed in Rock Music.

50 years of gigs, buying albums and meeting musicians. A life well spent. These are the stories.

Foreword

Fight for what you believe with passion not violence.

Liz & Opher walking down Massachusetts Avenue
in Boston 1971 – featured on the front page of the Boston Evening Globe

Jack White launched into the searing riff that was the intro to ‘Death Letter Blues’. It shot me straight back to 1968 and the thrill of seeing and hearing Son House. Son’s national steel guitar was more ragged than Jack White’s crystal clear electric chords, and nowhere near as loud, but the chords rang true and the energy and passion were exactly the same.

Meg pounded the drums and the crowd surged forward.

It was Bridlington Spa in 2004. White Stripes were the hottest thing on the planet. The place was packed and the atmosphere electric. I was right near the front – the only place to be at any gig – the place where the intensity was magnified.

It was a huge crowd and they were crazy tonight. I could see the young kids piling into the mosh-pit and shoving – excited groups of kids deliberately surging like riot cops in a wedge driving into the crowd and sending them reeling so that they tumbled and spilled. For the first time I started getting concerned. The tightly packed kids in the mosh-pit were roaring and bouncing up and down and kept being propelled first one way and then another as the forces echoed and magnified through the mass of people. At the front the crush was intense and everyone was careering about madly. My feet were off the ground as we were sent hurtling around. I had visions of someone getting crushed, visions of someone falling and getting trampled. Worst of all – it could be me!

For the first time in forty odd years of gigs I bailed out. I ruefully headed for the balcony and a clear view of the performance. I didn’t want a clear view I wanted to be in the thick of the action. It got me wondering – was I getting to old for this lark? My old man had only been a couple of years older than me when he’d died. Perhaps Rock Music was for the young and I should be at home listening to opera or Brahms with an occasional dash of Wagner to add the spice. I had become an old git. Then I thought – FUCK IT!!! Jack White was fucking good! Fuck Brahms – This was Rock ‘n’ Roll. You’re never too old to Rock! And Rock was far from dead!

The search goes on!!

We haven’t got a clue what we’re looking for but we sure as hell know when we’ve found it.

Rock music has not been the backdrop to my entire adult life; it’s been much more than that. It has permeated my life, informed it and directed its course.

From when I was a small boy I found myself enthralled. I was grabbed by that excitement. I wanted more. I was hunting for the best Rock jag in the world! – The hit that would send the heart into thunder and melt the mind into ecstasy.

I was hunting for Beefheart, Harper, House, Zimmerman and Guthrie plus a host of others even though I hadn’t heard of them yet.

I found them and I’m still discovering them. I’m sixty four and looking for more!

Forget your faith, hope and charity – give me Sex, Drugs and Rock ‘n’ Roll and the greatest of these is Rock ‘n’ Roll!

I was a kid in the Thames Delta, with pet crow called Joey, 2000 pet mice (unnamed), a couple of snakes, a mammoth tusk, a track bike with a fixed wheel, a friend called Mutt who liked blowing up things, a friend called Billy who kept a big flask of pee in the hopes of making ammonia, and a lot of scabs on my knees.

My search for the heart of Rock began in 1959 and I had no idea what I was looking for when I started on this quest. Indeed I did not know I had embarked on a search for anything. I was just excited by a new world that opened up to me; the world of Rock Music. My friend Clive Hansell also had no idea what he was initiating when he introduced me to the sounds he was listening to. Clive was a few years older than me. He liked girls and he liked Popular Music. Yet he seemed to have limited tastes. I can only ever remembering him playing me music by two artists – namely Adam Faith and Buddy Holly. In some ways it was a motley introduction to the world of Rock ‘n’ Roll.

I was ten years old which would have made Clive about twelve or thirteen, I suppose he could even have been fourteen. That is quite a lot of years at that age. We used to got off to his bedroom, sit on the bed and he’d play me the singles – 45s – on his Dansette player. He’d stack four or five singles on the deck push the lever up to play and we’d lean forward and watch intently. The turntable would start rotating; the mechanism clunked as the arm raised, there were clicks and clunks as the arm drew back and the first single dropped, then the arm would come across and descend on to the outer rim of the disc. The speaker would hiss and crackle and then the music kicked in. We watched the process intently every time as if it depended on our full attention.

The Adam Faith singles were on Parlaphone and were red with silver writing. The Buddy Holly was on Coral with a black label and silver writing. We reverentially watched the discs spinning and listened with great concentration to every aspect of the songs. It was a start.

Yet Rock ‘n’ Roll was by no means the only quest I’d started on. I was an early developer. I’d hit puberty at ten and can imagine myself as the scruffy little, dirty-faced kid who climbed trees, waded through ditches, got covered in frogspawn and lichen and was suddenly sprouting pubic hair – very confusing.

Life was going to change for me. I was in a transition phase.

10 best Roy Harper Tracks

  1. The Lord’s Prayer
  2. McGoohan’s Blues
  3. The Game
  4. One Of Those Days in England pts 2-10
  5. I Hate the Whiteman
  6. The Same Old Rock
  7. Forever
  8. Halluciating Light
  9. How Does it Feel
  10. Me And My Woman
  11. When An Old Cricketer Leaves The Crease

10 Best Beatles Tracks!

It’s always good to play about with lists! My tastes might change a bit from day to day but are fairly constant. I never get tired of these.

11. Tomorrow Never Knows

10. Strawberry Fields Forever

9. Revolution

8. Here Comes the Sun

7. Yer Blues

6. I saw her standing there

5. Because

4. Within you and without you

3. Here, There and Everywhere

2. Come Together

  1. Across the Universe

Star – A Sci-fi novel – An intergalactic Rock Star meets his fate.

Star

 

It’s the sixties – the three thousand one hundred and sixties.

The Federation is in conflict with the Confederation.

The Troman war rages …

There is a civil rights issue with the Androvians.

Young people all across the galaxy are in revolt. Rock Music, on an intergalactic scale, is the medium of the rebellion.

Zargos Ecstasy and the Terminal Brain Grope are providing the impetus for the rebellion.

Zargos, a larger than life character based on Bob Dylan, Hendrix, Jagger, Jim Morrison and Bowie, struts the stage, putting his poems to music and rousing the spacefreaks to seek social justice.

If you lived through the sixties you’ll recognise it all.

Extract

The beginning

Hilan Hilzar sat back into the posture form sensopadding of his couch seat. He was so full of tension that the living contouring did little to reduce the tightness of his muscles. He could not relax. The huge effort of holding back the excitement was making is body rigid. His mind was clamping down on his torso like a crushing weight so that the pressure welled up inside him. His heart felt swollen, writhing around in his chest. His flesh was actually jumping and twitching as if some high voltage current was flowing through his veins. He was worried that it would trigger the seat’s resuscitation unit. It might consider him at risk and ping him with a sedative.

For weeks now his whole existence seemed to have been building up to this climax. At first it had all seemed unreal – an eternity away. It had crawled towards him at a krank-snail’s pace; like it would never arrive. It had devoured his concentration leaving him unable to think of anything else. Then it had simply rushed and the impossible day had arrived.

The journey here was a haze of unreality. He had spent the entire time peering around himself in disbelief. It could not really be happening. Reality was divorced from the evidence of his senses.

He sat back into the seat and took a deep breath as the sensopadding rippled calmingly around him. His mind refused to operate properly. Only fragments of the journey were registering. He’d been in a dream. It was a wonder that he had got here at all. He had vague recollections of boarding the ship and then the jump. Somehow the surge had only barely registered at all. Who could believe that? He had burned through the colour shifts with all the interest of a veteran traveller or some spoilt rich kid to whom hyperspace was a regular event. Instead of being astounded by the brilliance he had just wanted it to end; to arrive. His mind had not been there at all. Even the re-entry was just a dream that washed over him. It was almost forgotten. It meant nothing. His mind was already ahead of him, dancing at his destination. In his head he was already there. This entire journey, no matter how amazing, had been no more than a necessary nuisance to be endured. The terminal had been awash with a multitude of beings as aliens mingled with humans and he allowed himself to be wafted along with the flood of the crowd. They were borne along on a babbling sea of excitement that engulfed them all.

It was as if he only really awoke when he entered the arena. He stood for a minute open-mouthed as the crowd washed past him, boggling at the immensity of it. He was here. He really was. Only then did he dare to let himself believe. He allowed himself to look around as he was checked by an automated usher, conveyed and deposited into his allocated seat. All the while he had been in a trance.

As he came to, excitement welled up inside him as he accepted that he was actually here. He had made it. He bounced to his feet and found himself jumping up and down madly waving to the various groups of friends in his immediate vicinity, the same friends he had not even registered on his journey here.

After a while he had calmed down sufficiently to settle back down into his seat. He could barely contain himself. There were still hours to wait.

A sun was up casting hard sharp shadows. The sky glowed with a deep violet blue bathing the audience with its soft gleam. It would be nightfall before anything happened. He forced himself to calm down. His body would surely give out if it continued at this pitch. He did not want to burn out before it even started.

The sun set below the curved horizon leaving a crystal clear void sprinkled with a billion stars like fine salt on black obsidian. They hung like a pall of smoke over the crowd. There were no gaps between the specks just differences of intensity. It was so clear that one could imagine there was no air or Plexiglas between them. It made him aware that this was a moon; no planet could possibly have created such clarity.

Hilan decided it was time to drop his tablet of Amaz.

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Poetry – To my Ears

To my ears

Looking back it just makes me smile.

It started with Buddy Who knew Peggy Sue.

Apache came out of the shadows while

Don, Phil and Elvis stormed on through.

Lonnie and Carl were putting on the style

Then Gene, Eddie and Richard were so bop a lu.

Filled my life with a smile

Chuck and Bo, Jimmy and Elmore too

But the authorities they did decide

To pull the plug

And the music died.

Then beetling in from Britain

With their rattling Liverpool crew,

The whole world was smitten

As hair just grew and grew.

Animal kinks and Sect were fitting

And stones rolled to make things blue.

Pretty things were written,

Dylan’s poems and the pot blew

The yard was full of birds sitting

Then the byrds got up and flew.

Small faces peered unbitten

And everyone wondered who?

Roy and the captain opened doors

As Jefferson flew right through

Jimi and Cream settled scores

To make love a strange brew

Heavy traffic and floyds tours

Said yes mac to much ado

With a clash of pistols from the stores

Stiff fingers turned the screw.

White stripes and Len’s spores

I knew it would have to do!

Opher – 2.1.2020

I couldn’t fit them all in and I’m sure it doesn’t scan right. But I guess it’s good enough for Rock ‘n’ Roll. I bet I got a few past you though.

The Fall in Hull – 2012

A fabulous concert!!

Poetry – A River of Music

A River of Music

There’s a river of music

Flowing through our minds

Connecting us.

With tendrils of sound,

Rivulets of notes,

Waterfalls of words,

Joining us,

To create a an orchestra

Of unification.

As our spirits sing together

The melody becomes a spectrum

Of all our experience;

Of love, hate and anger,

Spirituality and ideals,

Entwined with politics

And freedom.

Within the harmony

Lies the gamut of emotion,

A lexicon of thought,

And descant of feeling.

The whole universe

Cascades in a symphony

To a sea

Of intimate meaning,

An ocean of oneness,

That is the music

Of life.

Opher – 17.8.2019

I find music sustaining. It expresses every thought and emotion I feel, crosses cultures and speaks directly to the spirit within.

It is the most ancient and fundamental aspect of humanity.

Anyone who denies music denies life.

Today’s Music to Keep me SssSsAaaaaNnnnNeeee in Isolation – Led Zeppelin

I feel like I need a bit of Heavy stuff with added depth!! What could be better. I caught them in a small club – The Toby Jug – before they really took off! Great!

Today’s Music To Keep Me SsSSssaaaaAnnnnneeee in Isolation – Joni Mitchell – Hejira

I felt like some of Joni’s magic today – beautifully crafted songs sung and played perfectly!!

Today’s Music to keep me SSSssSAaAaaNnnneeeee in Isolation – Jimi Hendrix – Electric Ladyland

I’m going to immerse myself in Hendrix today. I shall think back to the three times I saw him play. A genius!!

To think that he only released 5 albums in his lifetime – three studio albums, 1 live album and 1 album of singles.