Traumas

Traumas

The traumas of the past

                                                                Embed themselves

                                                                                                                                Deep inside.

And fester.

An acid

                In the mind,

                                That erodes

                                                All that is good.

At times forgotten

                But merely lying dormant

                                To rise

                                                Ever larger

                                                                Until

                                                                                It swamps

                                                                                                The psyche

                                                                                                                And perverts

                                                                                                                                The being;

The core of all time.

The traumas of the past

                Rise

                                Like grotesque monsters

                                                Escaping

                                                                From the

                                                                                Clammy, Claustrophobic clutches

                                                                                                Of a deep internal tomb.

                                                                                                                To strangle

                                                                                                                                The life

Out of the present.

No trauma is ever healed.

Opher – 28.12.2024

In my experience I see the damage done.

We think we are resilient but we aren’t. The human mind is a delicate machine. Our minds are complex and susceptible to harm. Once damaged they never heal. We can never unsee, unfeel or forget.

The damage may lie dormant in the subconscious but it festers and works away at our sanity.

Every betrayal, every abandonment, every injury and pain is stored up and presents itself in hurt, in protective behaviour, in withdrawal and psychosis.

It’s not just the major things, the PTSD, the major breakdowns, even the lesser stuff throws us off kilter.

The bullied bully. The hurt hurt. The abandoned always leave. The unloved cannot love. The damaged damage.

The world runs on fear and hate. Politicians stoke it.

The world runs on pain.

Just imagine if we could heal all those damaged minds and run the world on love and compassion?

Poetry – Fairy Tales (for Dewin)

Fairy Tales

Nobody ever dies!

They merely pass away

Becoming angels and stars.

We’ll meet again

                In a future life

On a planet North of Mars.

They do not die

                They merely sleep

And gently slip away.

They are up in heaven

                Waiting for us

To come along to play.

There is no death.

                They rest in peace

Shuffle off the coil.

Give up the ghost

                Join the host

And never have to toil.

Opher – 4.5.2020

I hate these euphemisms, lies and fairy tales.

Death hurts. It’s a loss – sometimes so difficult to come to terms with.

But do we really need to sugar-coat it? It isn’t a sleep, a portal into an infinite blissful after-life. It’s an end.

Death comes. Our consciousness falls apart. We are no longer there. It is the end.

We will not meet again. It will not be a blissful reunion and ecstasy forever.

The idea seems absurd to me. It is just a defence mechanism we adopt to try to come to terms with the finality of it. Our loved ones are gone and we will never see them again.

It is so hard.

Our own death seems so unreal. But one day we will no longer exist.

The universe will go on without us until it too burns out.

Life is what we do in the moment.